Thanks for the comment, Todd. Well, the situation with the woman may be getting better, but it may be getting worse. I'm not sure. She has not come to the Sunday morning programming two of the last three weeks. That doesn't seem to be a good sign. As far as my frustration with her goes, I don't even have any. I'm more frustrated with the helpless feeling of turning young people on to Jesus. A part of me feels that I will be considered a failure if I don't entertain these students and draw a big crowd. For some reason, I feel as if none of them would want to love Jesus if that's all that our church was about. Maybe that reflects something in my life and my relationship with Jesus.

Lately, I feel like I've been talking to a brick wall. I'm not even sure if God is listening anymore. If someone were to ask me about His existence, I would give them the lip service, but I'm not sure if I would mean it. He just seems so far away and so far removed from the lives of His children. Why does He seem to ignore my prayers? Will He begin to answer them if I obey Him more? Does He ignore me because I am disobedient? Does He care at all about the things that I care about? I don't understand His ways. The deceiver whispers to me and I start to believe that I can't love what I don't understand. I know that that isn't true, but it isn't easy.