Monday, July 19, 2004

It's been a while since my last posting. Blogging goes in and out of fashion with me like moustaches. I've kind of got a poor man's Don Juan thing going on right now. Its pretty nasty. Kim laughs at me a lot. She finds it hard to take me seriously. Speaking of Kim, she is on bedrest right now. She can't wait to have this baby and neither can I.

About a month from now, I will be a father. It humbles the crap out of me more and more. When I feel Kiefer kick in her belly, I start to realize more and more that he is a person. I start to remember that I was once in that same spot. I really had a strong desire to hug my parents this weekend. We are a close family, but we don't physically express it like some other families. Its odd. I'm hoping that God will give me what I need to have to be a decent earthly father for this kid. I don't know what I would do if my kid rejected Jesus. Can there be anything more painful for parents than that?

Stuff at church is going pretty well. I'm really settling into a groove with my lessons on Sunday morning. It turns out that I have a lot more to say than I once thought. Financially, the church is struggling. We may have to close things down in the next six months. I'm talking with the senior pastor about further developing our small groups ministry into a type of house church ministry. Our biggest financial problem is our building. 70% of our budget goes to pay the mortgage. That's ridiculous. We only use the thing once a week! I'm listening to the Spirit on what I should do at this point.

I'm pretty excited for the Arizona sports this fall. The Cardinals, Coyotes, and Suns made some big moves. It will be fun to see how it all plays out.